Tuesday, August 26, 2008

PESSIMISTIC & OPTIMISTIC

it's been a long time i've born to this world..
to bring happiness to living things..
to spread sadness to human..
to lend ppl my hand..
as well as to create disturbances to the ppl around me..
from a illiterate baby to a childish child..
from a childish child to a "mature" girl..
slowly, i've realised..
slowly, i've believed..
n slowly, i've agreed with someone..
sometimes something juz looked to be ok..
but the truth is being hidden actually..
anyone of us wouldn't understand..
there will only be the understanding if n only if we've experienced it.
when there is someone looks very successful, happiness n wealthy..
envies start to lie in every corner..
everyone becomes the green of monsters invisibly..
but did they know..?
there are a lot of difficulties behind the successful..
there are also the lies behind believes..
juz like me..
everything of mine looked ok looked good..
but actually there are a lot of sadness behind my happiness..
there are a lot of disappointments behind my satisfactions..
there are a lot of difficulties behind my successful..
there are also a lot of stresses behind my relaxes..
nobody knows these from their first sights on me..
not only strangers..
but also friends..
perhaps including someone i wish to be around with..
i need ppl to understand y was i doing those unreasonable stuff..
maybe for thm juz a stupid n childish idea..
but..
i have my reasons n difficulties for my decisions n actions..
BELIEVE me!
i know..
nobody can be perfect 10..
if there is the perfect person..
there would not have the "war" n the "smoke of gunpowder" d..
from today onwards..
i'll try to behave myself..
try not to look something too important..
n try not to request for something so highly..
ok juz say thn..
to be open-minded in everything i do -------- family, friendship, relationship n non-living things..
caring, understanding, appreciating n co-operation..
those are juz all i want..